Since childhood I have loved to perform for an audience. I would stand in the window of my great-grandmother’s house behind the sheer white floor-to-ceiling curtains saying “Prreesssennntiinggg!” and pop out from behind for the applause of anyone that I had cajoled into standing still for thirty seconds. As I grew older, my performance genre shifted from the stage to the classroom. Even to this day I am seeking to impress my parents with my grades, and any future critic (those frightening Med school admissions personnel…eek.) While there are obvious positives to this near obsession, the greater problem arises when it bleeds over into my personal life. Plainly said, I’m a people pleaser, and often I find myself thriving on positive affirmation. And thus the plot thickens. As long as I continue to strive to please other people, I am making them my lord. Let me tell you this is a merciless master.
And how does this have much relevance? My concern is that this blog will morph into another outlet for me to seek affirmation from other people while simultaneously feeding the ugly monster within…aka my pride, spawn of insecurity. As long as I seek to build myself up, I can never be wholeheartedly serving the Lord, for one cannot serve two masters. Thus this could be a very short-lived endeavor. The Grand Experiment.
My hope is that I will be able to sort through some of the jumble of thoughts that are bound to be cluttering my mind at any given moment, and be able to eject them into something that is semi-productive. I am praying that the Lord can be glorified through my mess. He’s done it before, and I believe He is great enough to do it again!
*Random side note: At both church services I attended yesterday (at two different churches of different denominations) this same verse was read, and I think that it is necessary to share today! "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."-Psalm 46:1. Be encouraged for the Lord is greater than every trouble we may face, and He has already overcome the world!
Blessings :)
*Random side note: At both church services I attended yesterday (at two different churches of different denominations) this same verse was read, and I think that it is necessary to share today! "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."-Psalm 46:1. Be encouraged for the Lord is greater than every trouble we may face, and He has already overcome the world!
Blessings :)
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